So as an analytical thinker, i usually try to see if i see a pattern in things that i do, or just things that i observe. moreso, i think i try to find patterns in things that i do so i can better understand myself. you'd think understanding your own self would be easy, but i don't think it is.
one pattern i've found (well it might not be an actual pattern, since it's only happened twice), is that when i know i'm going to be moving somewhere in a couple months, i run into someone i start to like a lot. then it just adds stress to me as i neither times i've been sure of if i should try to start something and see how it goes or not. both times i've decided to see where it goes. haven't regretted either of those choices (but like i said in a previous blog i haven't regretted any decisions i've made). one of my co-workers/friends brought up the point that maybe i find someone because sub-consciously i don't want to move. well the first time i had to move, it wasn't sub-conscious of not wanting to leave as i firmly knew i wanted to stay in AUS (still might make it back there, but i'm not worrying too much about that right now). anyways, it could be that i really didn't wanna leave, but i dunno.
other patterns in my life (that i know of) include: waiting until the couple of days before an exam to do the serious studying, stress makes me drink more caffeinated beverages, and ???
actually now i'm trying to decide the difference between a pattern and just plain habit. dictionary.com has one definition of habit as 'an acquired behavior pattern regularly followed until it has become almost involuntary' and pattern as 'a combination of qualities, acts, tendencies, etc., forming a consistent or characteristic arrangement'
so maybe they are one in the same. at least to some degree. or maybe it could be said that a pattern eventually becomes a habit. anyone agree/disagree?
hmmm....i thought i had more to say about this, but i guess not.
random thoughts, some meaningful, some not so much from a mind of "applied and computational mathematics"
1 comment:
I think the, um, procrastination and caffeine are habits. As for the relationship issues ...
Perhaps patterns become habits, or maybe they are all along. Generally speaking, most of us have certain "people tendencies" -- we behave in fairly similar ways when put into new situations, we hold back in the same areas, we date the same types (be they jerky, complicated, or bald and tattooed) ... I think there's probably a reason you suddenly end up meeting someone, but it could be as simple as wanting to end a stage on a good note.
Or perhaps your timing just sucks. ;)
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