it's cold

k i know it's not nearly as cold here as the east side of the state, but it's cold! definately wanna move somewhere that doesn't get below 50.

positive things of cold weather tho are:
-hot chocolate (w/ kahlua)
-fires (in a fireplace of course)
-cuddling (preferably a person, pet works as a 2nd choice, then a pillow or blanket as a last resort)

i'm sure there's probably more, but i cant think of any and i need to head to class. actually i'm gonna go get a mocha before heading to class.

warning signs

some things make you come to conclusion that you work too much. for me it's when i go out to eat and regardless of where i go at least one of the people working say something along the lines of "not working today?" first thing that pops into my head is 'do i know you?' actually that's not true, first thing that pops into my head is 'are you stalking me?' :-P after the person asks that, the people i'm with then ask who that person is, which i say 'i have no clue, but they must go to Boston's a lot'

ok this then makes me think of when people come in, order a drink w/ alcohol in it, and then don't have their id's but say "don't you remember, you served us a couple days ago". to this as a server you just wanna say "no i don't, do you know how many people i see in a day? unless you order something completely strange there's slim to nill that i'll remember you after you leave"

also another sign (but along the same line) is when out at a diff restaraunt, my server refers to me as 'Boston's guy'. or maybe i'm looking at it the wrong way. maybe i was just so awesome of a server that the people remember me.

or how about when asleep you dream of being at work? not sure if that happens to me or not as most nights i don't remember what i dreamed (assuming i dreamed at all).

and yet another sign of working too much is altho you have a house/apartment there is no food in the fridge or cupboards 'cause the only thing you really do at home is sleep and shower eventho you're up from 7am to midnight most days. this is mostly due to school and work combined.

alright now i'm just reaching for things to type, so i guess that's it for now, ciao

procrastination

so should be studying for an exam tomorrow, but kinda don't wanna and i've already procrastinated using facebook, getting a mocha (to study with), emailing, etc. so i figured why not blog as well.

today in class my teacher said "the most destructive a person can be is when they believe 100% that they are correct" (or somewhere along that line).

if you think about it, he is right. some of the worst things happen when a person (or group of people) believe they are correct and others are wrong. for example war follows this. or on a smaller scale, how about just arguing w/ someone in general. usually an argument happens when someone believes that they're right, when they really aren't (unless the person just likes to argue).

anyways, this got me thinking of things that i believe i'm 100% correct about. i know earlier i was able to think of a couple things but right now i can't. and actually that is really bugging me as well. how is it i can't think of something that i believe to be 100% correct? ok, my mind jumped to sexuality. i fully believe that a person has no control on who they like. a person can't just say "i'm going to like guys (or girls) as of right now". there may be some influences as a person grows and it may also be genetic, or most likely than not some sort of combination of the two. i just don't see how some people can believe that it's a person's own choice in being bi or gay. the only choice the person has is if they want to follow their feelings or live a life where they are lying not only to everyone but most importantly to themself. and i'm gonna stop on that topic now before i just start ranting.

and it's really bugging me that i can't think of anything else i feel to be fully and completely true. i know i always think of both sides of an issue, thinking of the positives and negatives of both, but there has to be some issues or topics or something that i would stand/fight for.

so i guess to whoever is reading this, what do you believe you're 100% correct about?

long weekend --> study abroad presentation

you'd think since it was a long weekend this weekend, and that i only had to work 1 day of it that i woulda been a bit more productive and getting things done like cleaning, studying, yardwork. but nope, i haven't done any of that. well i guess i've done some cleaning, but that's only 'cause i need to see my bedroom floor (and needed clean clothes :-P)

i have started being a little productive today tho. been looking thru all my Aussie stuff as i'm gonna be giving a short presentation on studying abroad on wednesday. it's amazing how so many memories can not exactly be forgotten, but covered up by fresher memories (even if the newer ones aren't as good).

wonder how honest i'm suppose to be during it. probably want me to be fully honest. the thing is tho, that i'm letting my fear persuade me from making stuff up. i know why i went to AUS, as to my closest friends. it was a trip to learn more about me and who i am. it was meant to change my life. it was to make myself more confident.

the thing is it worked, in the greater sense. i am more confident in myself. i have learned who i am. it has changed my life (from knowing who i am more or less). i just don't know if i wanna tell a bunch of people i don't really know that i went because i had to get away from everything i knew so as to not be influenced by them. then again maybe that's what some of them would need to hear.

other things i'm not sure what to say is about what all i did when i was down there. mostly i partied. i didn't do too much touristy things as that wasn't my plan before i went there. i had wanted to live in a different culture. i coulda traveled around all of AUS with the other exchange students, but i spent the vast majority of the 10 months in Canberra hanging out with the Aussies on campus. I learned heaps of phrases, slang, and about the aussie life. the other exchange student's probably picked up some phrases and all, but i think i may have learned more and experienced the culture (at least the aussie uni student culture) better than they did. not that they didn't experience it, they experienced a diff part of the culture than i did. which in reality is good, as they went and experienced what they wanted to while i experienced what i wanted to.

wow i think i figured out what i'm gonna say. still gotta decide tho if i'm gonna be open and say what i learned about myself or not.

now if i could only figure out what else to do today instead of doing what i should be doing (aka studying/hw)