good week

so this has been a good week, overall, and it's only wednesday.

i suppose it really started at the end of last week. on saturday, i had gone to Boulder to listen to a friend be a support singer for one of her friends, and to enjoy the festivities that were going on. I heard some really good music, that i normally wouldn't listen to. what made the music even better was listening to it while in a cafe. i am definately a fan of most of the people that played and sang. I definitely recommend "The Monkey Song" and "At the Cafe" by Ryan Mintz. he also has a couple other good songs that i found online after seeing him live.

sunday, was a nice day in which a picnic (of sorts) and volleyball was played in a park in Denver. then there was a bbq at home when i returned. so it was a day full of fun and good food.

monday, i had the most interesting interview i could have imagined. it was an analytical interview, which involved getting 3 monks and 3 cannibals from one side of the river to another (with some rules involved), doors that lead to freedom or certain death, and a scale that costs $10,000 for each time it was used. definitely wasn't the typical interview. i then got called a couple hours after i had left to ask if i was still interested and they wanted to bring me in for a 2nd interview.

oh yeah, and also met up with friends and caught up over some rather good thai/indian food.

tuesday was a little less eventful, but was fun as there was volleyball at night. we ended up winning 2 and losing 2, but it was still fun as it was competitive, but not too competitive.

today was just totally amazing because i called the company back that i had interviewed with last week (they had left a message on tuesday about they wanted to talk about my interview and position) and they offered me a job! this just made my day completely as it's the 1st job offer of since graduating. my excitement made it rather hard for me to calm down enough to go to the 2nd interview for the other company. of which i think went ok, not great, but not horrible either. then again, i thought i didn't do all that well in the interview with the other company.

anyways, i should hear back from the one company tomorrow either way and then i may or may not have some decisions to make. the location of both of them really won't be an issue as they are both in Golden.

well, my tummy is grumbling so i think i should go find some food. i also foresee a bit of celebration occuring later on the week and/or weekend. maybe friday since it's "international talk like a pirate day" or who knows. but yeah...off to find some food.

masks

below is a poem i like. i know that it was originally written for a specific group of people (at least i think that's what i was told in class), but i think that it can be applied to anybody regardless of the numerous sub-groups society puts us into. to me it show's a common feature everybody shares, but nobody ever really talks about.

*note: the "We wear the mask" parts are suppose to be indented
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We Wear the Mask
by: Paul Laurence Dunbar

We wear the mask that grins and lies
It hides our cheeks and shades our eyes, -
This debt we pay to human guile;
With torn and bleeding hearts we smile,
And mouth with myriad subtleties.

Why should the world be overwise,
In counting all our tears and sighs?
Nay, let them only see us, while
We wear the mask.

We smile, but, O great Christ, our cries
To thee from tortured souls arise.
We sing, but oh the clay is vile
Beneath our feet, and long the mile;
But let the world dream otherwise,
We wear the mask!

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listening to : "Lucky" by Britney Spears
(yes, that is what i'm listening to, it's just the mood i'm in)

recent realizations

so below are things that i've recently discovered:

1. i've been spelling definitely wrong for long long time (i had been spelling it as definately).

2. caffeine actually effects me now (and i'm hoping it's effects and not affects).

3. i'm not in any way, shape, or form and expert in english (especially the grammar part).

4. i have a couple shirts in my closet that i shouldn't wear out to bars and such as they give people wrong assumptions. one being my shirt that says "Single", which is pretty easy to figure out why, but i just like the shirt because i think it's funny. when i wear it, i am not advertising myself. another shirt is a "Mountain Dew" one. when i wear it, i DO NOT mean 'mount and do" me!! i wear the shirt because for 1: i used to drink a lot of mountain dew and 2: it's green and goes with my eyes :-P

5. i always enjoy places that i'm not currently living, which i'm assuming is due to the feeling of it being new and exciting (ie this past weekend i visited friends in DC and am now thinking of looking for jobs there).

6. it's fun to sneak into career fairs at different colleges :-P

7. i let what others want influence what i really want. i believe this is mostly due to the fact that i am a people pleaser.

8. i'm scared that i'll never have the guts to stand up to someone for what i firmly believe/feel. (this really isn't a recent acknowledgement, but just something i've never let known, altho some of you may have noticed i never stood up to someone before)

9. i've never really thought about the so called 'type' of people i like or whatnot. (in doing so wouldn't that be stereotyping???)

10. i'm not alone in many things i think and feel. partly from meeting people, but also from Post Secrets.

11. i unconsciously flirt with people, or maybe people think i flirt because i actually pay attention to what they say, i dunno (so would that count as a realization then???)

12. when i'm not sure about something when typing or texting i always use ??? at the end, but never use ?? or ????, it's always ???. also, if i'm using exclamations and question marks it's either !?! or ?!? depending on if i'm more excited or confused.

i'm pretty sure there are more things that i've recently realized, but nothing else is really coming to mind. oh well, not like it's all that important. at least i don't think it is because, well, this is just a blog for fun and/or to vent every now and then.

with that, i'll think i'll bring this entry to an end. laters