so most of my recent posts have been serious (more or less). trying to think of a topic that is a bit more, well fun. can't really think of too much. i do remember always thinking some point during my day "hey, i should remember that and type about it later" but well by the time i sit down i forget what it was that i was gonna type about.
i do have senioritis tho, which isn't helping much with everything i need to get done, but oh well. other than graduating in about 10 days or so, other exciting things coming up include the free so called breakfast sunday evening. i do remember it being a bit more entertaining the first couple years, but it's still fun. for those that have never been to it, or know nothing about it, several of the professors and faculty make pancakes, sausage, eggs, etc for students the night before finals week begins. they also have drawings to give out prizes. it's a little sad that i didn't get a prize until i think the spring semester of 06. altho i guess i can be happy i got something useful like a cd case instead of an inflateable field goal (what ever happened to that ashley???)
ok so that might be the only thing that's coming up that i'm remotely excited about, other than when i turn in my last project next friday when i then anticipate going out and celebrating.
well i should either do some hw before heading to bed or just head to bed so i can wake up and do hw before class tomorrow. laters
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Monday, April 28, 2008
Neo-Earth = Fun
so i guess i get to see now where everybody is located that looks at my blog. granted i guess i'm assuming that people (i know of 1, and thats about it) actually look or read what i write :-P
sad thing tho is that having the little thing expires in a couple weeks as i'm a poor college student right now and don't really wanna pay for it (at least not quite yet). maybe once i get an actual career (i say career as i have a job right now) i'll be more inclined to pay for it. altho that's assuming i actually see that people do read what i write.
anyways enough procrastination, back to school work. only 11 more days (or so) 'til graduation!!! once again assuming i get my 3 projects completed and don't fail any of my 3 exams. but yeah, laters all
sad thing tho is that having the little thing expires in a couple weeks as i'm a poor college student right now and don't really wanna pay for it (at least not quite yet). maybe once i get an actual career (i say career as i have a job right now) i'll be more inclined to pay for it. altho that's assuming i actually see that people do read what i write.
anyways enough procrastination, back to school work. only 11 more days (or so) 'til graduation!!! once again assuming i get my 3 projects completed and don't fail any of my 3 exams. but yeah, laters all
Friday, April 25, 2008
Choices (part 2)
"All the Adam had, all that Caesar could, you have and can do . . . Build, therefore, your own world" ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
Continuing on the idea of choices; more of my thoughts involving choices are as follows (which more or less follow the above quote):
you can choose to see either the good or the bad in things, this includes people, situations, etc.
you can choose what you want in your life. that is things that are "good" influences or those that are "bad" (good and bad are in quotes because well to quote shakespeare "for there is nothing either good or bad but thinking makes it so").
you can choose to stay in a life that makes you unhappy, or make the necessary changes to make you happy (this one i guess kinda goes with the previous one).
mostly i guess i just believe that your life is what you make it and what you believe it is. that is if you believe that the world is full of opportunity, beauty, benevolent people, etc. then that is the world that you will see and the world of which you will live in. if on the contrary you see the world full of distrust, hate, and filled with people only worrying about themselves, then that also is the world that you will see and live in. i'm not saying that you have to be naive about all the bad/evil things that happen in the world if you see it full of hope, love, beauty, etc. (and vice versa), as then you get walked all over and used.
maybe it's that i've been able to see a lot of the beauty and such in the world. could be that having been able to travel has aided in this. i dunno, i just know that there have been some people in my life that i want to literally shake (or smack :-P) and tell them that all people are not evil. not all people think solely about themselves. that there are people in the world that wont use them to benefit themself.
anyone agree, disagree, or ??? anything thoughts in general???
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listening to "This is Who We Are" by Cartel
Continuing on the idea of choices; more of my thoughts involving choices are as follows (which more or less follow the above quote):
you can choose to see either the good or the bad in things, this includes people, situations, etc.
you can choose what you want in your life. that is things that are "good" influences or those that are "bad" (good and bad are in quotes because well to quote shakespeare "for there is nothing either good or bad but thinking makes it so").
you can choose to stay in a life that makes you unhappy, or make the necessary changes to make you happy (this one i guess kinda goes with the previous one).
mostly i guess i just believe that your life is what you make it and what you believe it is. that is if you believe that the world is full of opportunity, beauty, benevolent people, etc. then that is the world that you will see and the world of which you will live in. if on the contrary you see the world full of distrust, hate, and filled with people only worrying about themselves, then that also is the world that you will see and live in. i'm not saying that you have to be naive about all the bad/evil things that happen in the world if you see it full of hope, love, beauty, etc. (and vice versa), as then you get walked all over and used.
maybe it's that i've been able to see a lot of the beauty and such in the world. could be that having been able to travel has aided in this. i dunno, i just know that there have been some people in my life that i want to literally shake (or smack :-P) and tell them that all people are not evil. not all people think solely about themselves. that there are people in the world that wont use them to benefit themself.
anyone agree, disagree, or ??? anything thoughts in general???
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listening to "This is Who We Are" by Cartel
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Song Reflection
(kinda copying a friends blog, i'm gonna use song lyrics to blog about)
So the following lyrics are from the song "Can't be Saved" by Senses Fail (which is one of my favorite bands, so there might be more lyrics from them in the future :-P):
"Follow your bliss
It reads on my chest
I know I got it tattooed for a reason
Why can't I just hold it true?
'Cause I'm still crashing all the funerals
Of these people that I never knew
I'm stuck in a coma
Stuck in a neverending sleep
Some day I will wake up
And realize I made up everything
I shut the door and turn all the lights out
And listen to all the songs that the night shouts
They go something like this
So
Go fill up a glass with tonic rocks and gin
And drink yourself to happiness
I'm stuck in a coma
Stuck in a neverending sleep
Some day I will wake up
And realize I made up everything
We can all hang ourselves
(from gold chandeliers)
And drink good bye
To all (al the pain and fears)
Loose lips have sunk this ship
(To a shallow grave)
Washed up upon the rocks
(I won't be saved)
(I won't be saved)
I'm stuck in a coma
Stuck in a neverending sleep
Some day I will wake up
And realize I gave up everything
I won't be saved
(So follow your bliss, it reads on my chest)
I won't be saved
(I know I got it tattooed for a reason)
I won't be saved
(I shut to the door and turn all the lights out)
I won't be saved
(I listen to all the songs that the night shouts)"
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at first i really didn't care for this song all that much. at least i don't think i did. i do know that i began to like it more after i saw the music video for it. mostly i like it because of the chorus, which to me kinda represents growing up in general and not being true to yourself (ie 'made up everything'). in the end though you realize that by not being yourself, you are actually giving up more than you know.
k so maybe i like it mostly due to the last sentence and how i tend to like anything that deals with the idea of "if you risk nothing, then you risk everything". i really need to find that quote for sure so i can write it down and have it on hand whenever i want/need it.
also have you ever realized that lyrics tend to have a different feeling attached to them when you read them opposed to hearing them in a song???
So the following lyrics are from the song "Can't be Saved" by Senses Fail (which is one of my favorite bands, so there might be more lyrics from them in the future :-P):
"Follow your bliss
It reads on my chest
I know I got it tattooed for a reason
Why can't I just hold it true?
'Cause I'm still crashing all the funerals
Of these people that I never knew
I'm stuck in a coma
Stuck in a neverending sleep
Some day I will wake up
And realize I made up everything
I shut the door and turn all the lights out
And listen to all the songs that the night shouts
They go something like this
So
Go fill up a glass with tonic rocks and gin
And drink yourself to happiness
I'm stuck in a coma
Stuck in a neverending sleep
Some day I will wake up
And realize I made up everything
We can all hang ourselves
(from gold chandeliers)
And drink good bye
To all (al the pain and fears)
Loose lips have sunk this ship
(To a shallow grave)
Washed up upon the rocks
(I won't be saved)
(I won't be saved)
I'm stuck in a coma
Stuck in a neverending sleep
Some day I will wake up
And realize I gave up everything
I won't be saved
(So follow your bliss, it reads on my chest)
I won't be saved
(I know I got it tattooed for a reason)
I won't be saved
(I shut to the door and turn all the lights out)
I won't be saved
(I listen to all the songs that the night shouts)"
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at first i really didn't care for this song all that much. at least i don't think i did. i do know that i began to like it more after i saw the music video for it. mostly i like it because of the chorus, which to me kinda represents growing up in general and not being true to yourself (ie 'made up everything'). in the end though you realize that by not being yourself, you are actually giving up more than you know.
k so maybe i like it mostly due to the last sentence and how i tend to like anything that deals with the idea of "if you risk nothing, then you risk everything". i really need to find that quote for sure so i can write it down and have it on hand whenever i want/need it.
also have you ever realized that lyrics tend to have a different feeling attached to them when you read them opposed to hearing them in a song???
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Choices
Whenever i think of choices, i begin to think of how the choices we make begin to define who we are. Then my mind thinks of movies like Spiderman, X-men, etc., but i'm not going to follow that tangent.
back to choices defining ourselves. actually, i'm not fully sure where i want to go with that. i just believe that in life you have choices you have to make every day. some of the choices are simple, like what to wear (ok, i struggle with that choice some days too :-P). others get repeated daily, like "do i go to class today?" still others are more complicated and may have drastic outcomes.
the choices that's sticking out most in my mind is how people choose to deal with the stresses and problems in their lives. lots of people make "healthy" choices by somehow manipulating the stress/problem into a form that can be useful. Anger for example is great motivation for running, plus while running you can sort things out in your head, at least that's my experience. even more people however seem to make "unhealthy" choices, turning to alcohol and/or drugs. it then seems that these choices are continually made becoming what is coined a "self-defeating behavior", and then it all seems to feed off of itself. that is for example using drugs because you are stressed and then not being hired for a job because there was a required drug test, and then doing drugs and such because of stress of needing to find a job. (i keep using 'seems' because this isn't for sure, its just my opinion from my observations)
maybe i care too much for people, as it makes me sad seeing people do things to themselves that keep them from achieving anything and everything they want or ever dreamed. each person has so much potential, i just hate seeing such potential go to waste.
granted i grew up in a 'loving' family, located in a good/safe area, don't ever remember money (or lack thereof) ever really being an issue, didn't ever get teased (other than from a sibling, but that doesn't count), and never really had anything that traumatic happen in my life. i did, however, have extremely high standards to live up to. i had to be, for lack of a better word, perfect. it was expected of me to be the best or close to the best in school, or in anything i did. it was expected of me to get straight A's. it was expected of me to be the typical All-American Boy. like i said, i was expected to be perfect.
if you don't feel that stress is enough to make a kid want to make "unhealthy" choices, try having that stress and then adding to it the stress of hiding who are are from everyone around you. That is, knowing you are not like most other guys, but playing the charade you are, knowing that if anyone found out you really liked guys, you would be tormented. (well maybe not actually knowing, but at least knowing the teasing that happens to others) this means never expressing my inner thoughts/feelings to anyone, especially not my parent's, and thus leaving a feeling of isolation from everything around. Maybe that's how most people feel in high school, i dunno.
i do know however, that i chose to play the role of the perfect child: graduating as valedictorian, achieving Eagle Scout, excelling in soccer/volleyball. I had chosen to use the role that was thrust upon me as the means of getting away and thus becoming who i am. I don't feel i am done with becoming who i am or who i can be, but i don't think anyone ever fully does.
However, resonating effects of my choice is that i still hide who i am to all except those who have proven are trustworthy. I have told my parents who i am, but beyond that i still only tell them the most basic of basic of what's going on in my life. actually there are only 2 people i trust completely with my inner thoughts/feelings. One is actually from high school, and the other is from college. I trust several more, but not as much as the 2.
in the end i guess what i'm mostly trying to get across is that a person has the choice to take what is thrown at them and use it in a beneficial way or not, and that there is always a time to make a new choice.
my question, then to the reader, is "What choices do you make?"
back to choices defining ourselves. actually, i'm not fully sure where i want to go with that. i just believe that in life you have choices you have to make every day. some of the choices are simple, like what to wear (ok, i struggle with that choice some days too :-P). others get repeated daily, like "do i go to class today?" still others are more complicated and may have drastic outcomes.
the choices that's sticking out most in my mind is how people choose to deal with the stresses and problems in their lives. lots of people make "healthy" choices by somehow manipulating the stress/problem into a form that can be useful. Anger for example is great motivation for running, plus while running you can sort things out in your head, at least that's my experience. even more people however seem to make "unhealthy" choices, turning to alcohol and/or drugs. it then seems that these choices are continually made becoming what is coined a "self-defeating behavior", and then it all seems to feed off of itself. that is for example using drugs because you are stressed and then not being hired for a job because there was a required drug test, and then doing drugs and such because of stress of needing to find a job. (i keep using 'seems' because this isn't for sure, its just my opinion from my observations)
maybe i care too much for people, as it makes me sad seeing people do things to themselves that keep them from achieving anything and everything they want or ever dreamed. each person has so much potential, i just hate seeing such potential go to waste.
granted i grew up in a 'loving' family, located in a good/safe area, don't ever remember money (or lack thereof) ever really being an issue, didn't ever get teased (other than from a sibling, but that doesn't count), and never really had anything that traumatic happen in my life. i did, however, have extremely high standards to live up to. i had to be, for lack of a better word, perfect. it was expected of me to be the best or close to the best in school, or in anything i did. it was expected of me to get straight A's. it was expected of me to be the typical All-American Boy. like i said, i was expected to be perfect.
if you don't feel that stress is enough to make a kid want to make "unhealthy" choices, try having that stress and then adding to it the stress of hiding who are are from everyone around you. That is, knowing you are not like most other guys, but playing the charade you are, knowing that if anyone found out you really liked guys, you would be tormented. (well maybe not actually knowing, but at least knowing the teasing that happens to others) this means never expressing my inner thoughts/feelings to anyone, especially not my parent's, and thus leaving a feeling of isolation from everything around. Maybe that's how most people feel in high school, i dunno.
i do know however, that i chose to play the role of the perfect child: graduating as valedictorian, achieving Eagle Scout, excelling in soccer/volleyball. I had chosen to use the role that was thrust upon me as the means of getting away and thus becoming who i am. I don't feel i am done with becoming who i am or who i can be, but i don't think anyone ever fully does.
However, resonating effects of my choice is that i still hide who i am to all except those who have proven are trustworthy. I have told my parents who i am, but beyond that i still only tell them the most basic of basic of what's going on in my life. actually there are only 2 people i trust completely with my inner thoughts/feelings. One is actually from high school, and the other is from college. I trust several more, but not as much as the 2.
in the end i guess what i'm mostly trying to get across is that a person has the choice to take what is thrown at them and use it in a beneficial way or not, and that there is always a time to make a new choice.
my question, then to the reader, is "What choices do you make?"
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Patterns
So as an analytical thinker, i usually try to see if i see a pattern in things that i do, or just things that i observe. moreso, i think i try to find patterns in things that i do so i can better understand myself. you'd think understanding your own self would be easy, but i don't think it is.
one pattern i've found (well it might not be an actual pattern, since it's only happened twice), is that when i know i'm going to be moving somewhere in a couple months, i run into someone i start to like a lot. then it just adds stress to me as i neither times i've been sure of if i should try to start something and see how it goes or not. both times i've decided to see where it goes. haven't regretted either of those choices (but like i said in a previous blog i haven't regretted any decisions i've made). one of my co-workers/friends brought up the point that maybe i find someone because sub-consciously i don't want to move. well the first time i had to move, it wasn't sub-conscious of not wanting to leave as i firmly knew i wanted to stay in AUS (still might make it back there, but i'm not worrying too much about that right now). anyways, it could be that i really didn't wanna leave, but i dunno.
other patterns in my life (that i know of) include: waiting until the couple of days before an exam to do the serious studying, stress makes me drink more caffeinated beverages, and ???
actually now i'm trying to decide the difference between a pattern and just plain habit. dictionary.com has one definition of habit as 'an acquired behavior pattern regularly followed until it has become almost involuntary' and pattern as 'a combination of qualities, acts, tendencies, etc., forming a consistent or characteristic arrangement'
so maybe they are one in the same. at least to some degree. or maybe it could be said that a pattern eventually becomes a habit. anyone agree/disagree?
hmmm....i thought i had more to say about this, but i guess not.
one pattern i've found (well it might not be an actual pattern, since it's only happened twice), is that when i know i'm going to be moving somewhere in a couple months, i run into someone i start to like a lot. then it just adds stress to me as i neither times i've been sure of if i should try to start something and see how it goes or not. both times i've decided to see where it goes. haven't regretted either of those choices (but like i said in a previous blog i haven't regretted any decisions i've made). one of my co-workers/friends brought up the point that maybe i find someone because sub-consciously i don't want to move. well the first time i had to move, it wasn't sub-conscious of not wanting to leave as i firmly knew i wanted to stay in AUS (still might make it back there, but i'm not worrying too much about that right now). anyways, it could be that i really didn't wanna leave, but i dunno.
other patterns in my life (that i know of) include: waiting until the couple of days before an exam to do the serious studying, stress makes me drink more caffeinated beverages, and ???
actually now i'm trying to decide the difference between a pattern and just plain habit. dictionary.com has one definition of habit as 'an acquired behavior pattern regularly followed until it has become almost involuntary' and pattern as 'a combination of qualities, acts, tendencies, etc., forming a consistent or characteristic arrangement'
so maybe they are one in the same. at least to some degree. or maybe it could be said that a pattern eventually becomes a habit. anyone agree/disagree?
hmmm....i thought i had more to say about this, but i guess not.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
blah
so i'm hoping the last couple days are not what the rest of the semester is going to be like. that is being at school by 7:30, have class until 3pm, having to be at work at 4, not getting done until 9:30ish, then heading back to school to study/do homework for several hours and then waking up to do it all over again.
guess i can't complain too much though, as this is really the only semester i've had that requires so much work, and i know others who have a full year or more of schedules like what i said. i do believe i really should have some stock in caffeine, as then i'd at least be getting some of my money back :-P
hmmm....what else is there (on a lighter side that is)??? got a funny article about squirrels drowning while crossing a "frozen" river in search of food. bit morbid in a way, but well i guess that's my humor :-P one sad/funny part of the article was that a person accidently killed a whole family of squirrels when he hit the block of ice they were on with his canoe/kayak (or something like that) knocking them all into the water. do feel a bit bad for the guy though, as he was trying to save them, but then 'caused there death.
k well i gotta go get ready for work, and nurse the wound on my neck from my aunts cat trying to reposition itself on my shoulders and failing (so glad he only has back claws). laters
guess i can't complain too much though, as this is really the only semester i've had that requires so much work, and i know others who have a full year or more of schedules like what i said. i do believe i really should have some stock in caffeine, as then i'd at least be getting some of my money back :-P
hmmm....what else is there (on a lighter side that is)??? got a funny article about squirrels drowning while crossing a "frozen" river in search of food. bit morbid in a way, but well i guess that's my humor :-P one sad/funny part of the article was that a person accidently killed a whole family of squirrels when he hit the block of ice they were on with his canoe/kayak (or something like that) knocking them all into the water. do feel a bit bad for the guy though, as he was trying to save them, but then 'caused there death.
k well i gotta go get ready for work, and nurse the wound on my neck from my aunts cat trying to reposition itself on my shoulders and failing (so glad he only has back claws). laters
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
graduation
so like i've mentioned before graduation is quickly approaching. i have started to get a little stressed with everything i need to get done. i think it was actually getting assigned the projects and such instead of just knowing that they were going to get assigned. i'm pretty sure i'll be able to get everything done, i just have to use my time a lot more wisely than i have been using it lately. i do tend to do better when i am busy though, as i know i don't have time to waste.
so a forewarning to any of you that tell me you want to do something: you better not ditch out as my annoyance/anger level is gonna be pretty low.
anyways, i am a bit excited for graduation. it's more of i wanna get done with this school and go someplace completely else. not that this school or city are bad by any means. they just don't have what i need personally. i'm not sure what exactly i'm gonna do once i graduate, but i'm trying to mostly just worry about the things that are slightly more important (ie all the projects i have to get done in order to graduate). i have thought a little about it, and currently my resume is in the career planning office (hopefully getting looked over) and then they'll tell me what to change and such, and then i'll be able to send it out. at least that's my plan with that.
one thing i find rather funny, possibly ironic, is that i told my mom that i don't want a party or anything after graduation. and now i may have to give up my bedroom that weekend for people coming for graduation. not that i mind giving up my room when people visit, but i really didn't want people to visit for my graduation. also i guess there's 4 or so sets of aunts and uncles that are coming. plus my mom is asking what kind of cake i want, what kind of food, etc. all to which i say "i don't want a party". oh well i know she just wants to show she's proud of me and whatnot, but still it's getting rather annoying (and like i said my annoyance level is rather low).
well i think i should go grab some lunch or something to eat before my 1 class today and then start working on the several projects i have.
so a forewarning to any of you that tell me you want to do something: you better not ditch out as my annoyance/anger level is gonna be pretty low.
anyways, i am a bit excited for graduation. it's more of i wanna get done with this school and go someplace completely else. not that this school or city are bad by any means. they just don't have what i need personally. i'm not sure what exactly i'm gonna do once i graduate, but i'm trying to mostly just worry about the things that are slightly more important (ie all the projects i have to get done in order to graduate). i have thought a little about it, and currently my resume is in the career planning office (hopefully getting looked over) and then they'll tell me what to change and such, and then i'll be able to send it out. at least that's my plan with that.
one thing i find rather funny, possibly ironic, is that i told my mom that i don't want a party or anything after graduation. and now i may have to give up my bedroom that weekend for people coming for graduation. not that i mind giving up my room when people visit, but i really didn't want people to visit for my graduation. also i guess there's 4 or so sets of aunts and uncles that are coming. plus my mom is asking what kind of cake i want, what kind of food, etc. all to which i say "i don't want a party". oh well i know she just wants to show she's proud of me and whatnot, but still it's getting rather annoying (and like i said my annoyance level is rather low).
well i think i should go grab some lunch or something to eat before my 1 class today and then start working on the several projects i have.
Friday, April 04, 2008
finally the weekend
oddly enough i was actually quite stressed yesterday. not sure when the last time was that i felt that stressed. i'm just glad that by the time i left campus yesterday it had resided a bit. afterall i was on campus from 7:30-4:30 working on school work, so theoretically i got quite a bit done. still have heaps more to do, but i have a temporary schedule in my head of when i need to be working on things.
for now tho, it's the weekend and i'm gonna enjoy tonight. not sure what exactly i'm gonna do. i might head up to sturgis and watching a live band play (i work w/ one of the people in the band) with some co-workers, just head up to my mom's place in the hills to relax and have some me time, both of the previous options as the house is within 10min of sturgis, or i dunno. i just know that i'm gonna take the next 24hrs or so and just not think about school. ok well that's slightly a lie, but i'm not gonna do anything school related.
oooo, something fun did happen yesterday while working on hw. so a while ago i wrote that i got asked to work at an abercrombie store. well i had said that i might be interested, but that i don't graduate 'til may. i gave them my number, and well they called yesterday to see if i was still interested in the MIT position (i'm assuming it means 'management in training'). i said possibly, but not quite sure. they said they'd call back in May. So if by chance i don't have a job (in my field i'm studying), at least i have that option. that is as long as i'd make as much or more than what i make now as a server. anywho, that's my fun news.
and now i'm off to find something to do other than sit at my computer as i'll be doing plenty of typing and such in the next several weeks preparing all my projects (hopefully learning LaTex isn't too hard :-P)
for now tho, it's the weekend and i'm gonna enjoy tonight. not sure what exactly i'm gonna do. i might head up to sturgis and watching a live band play (i work w/ one of the people in the band) with some co-workers, just head up to my mom's place in the hills to relax and have some me time, both of the previous options as the house is within 10min of sturgis, or i dunno. i just know that i'm gonna take the next 24hrs or so and just not think about school. ok well that's slightly a lie, but i'm not gonna do anything school related.
oooo, something fun did happen yesterday while working on hw. so a while ago i wrote that i got asked to work at an abercrombie store. well i had said that i might be interested, but that i don't graduate 'til may. i gave them my number, and well they called yesterday to see if i was still interested in the MIT position (i'm assuming it means 'management in training'). i said possibly, but not quite sure. they said they'd call back in May. So if by chance i don't have a job (in my field i'm studying), at least i have that option. that is as long as i'd make as much or more than what i make now as a server. anywho, that's my fun news.
and now i'm off to find something to do other than sit at my computer as i'll be doing plenty of typing and such in the next several weeks preparing all my projects (hopefully learning LaTex isn't too hard :-P)
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
let the stress begin
so theoretically i think i should be preparing to be pulling out my hair. graduation is in slightly over a month (can't wait!!), but there's still everything with classes going on. so much in fact that i think i have around 5 different projects all due by the end of this month. the weird thing is i'm not fully freaking out about it. part of me really thinks i should be, but the other part is convincing me it's a good thing to be relatively calm. towards the end of the month tho, there may be a whole different story.
maybe i'm not really stressing as i don't feel the projects are really all that big or complicated projects. one really is as it's my senior research project, and well i'm pretty sure if i don't get that done then i probably won't graduate. plus, my project should be done (for the most part) in a couple weeks, as that's when my presentation is (dry run around the 23rd or so with the actual presentation the 25th). i do believe i will be nervous during my presentation considering after my presentation a couple of profs are going to be giving a presentation that continues off of the work that i've done (no pressure there right???). not to mention the presentation is going to be at the regional MAA meeting or whatnot (MAA=Mathematical Association of America for you none engineering/math people).
ok i think i've procrastinated enough for one night (well kinda, i'm sure i'm gonna find other things to get distracted by).
maybe i'm not really stressing as i don't feel the projects are really all that big or complicated projects. one really is as it's my senior research project, and well i'm pretty sure if i don't get that done then i probably won't graduate. plus, my project should be done (for the most part) in a couple weeks, as that's when my presentation is (dry run around the 23rd or so with the actual presentation the 25th). i do believe i will be nervous during my presentation considering after my presentation a couple of profs are going to be giving a presentation that continues off of the work that i've done (no pressure there right???). not to mention the presentation is going to be at the regional MAA meeting or whatnot (MAA=Mathematical Association of America for you none engineering/math people).
ok i think i've procrastinated enough for one night (well kinda, i'm sure i'm gonna find other things to get distracted by).
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