one of those days

so today was going good, but then a little after lunch it just turned into one of those days you just want to end. the day started off rather well, but after eating lunch and working on some advance calculus homework, little things just started to get on my nerves. there was no particular reason for this, but i just kept getting more and more pissed. even while working out in the weight room i was getting angrier, which is weird because working out is suppose to get rid of anger/agitations. at least it usually does for me.

so for the last several hours i've been trying to find things to calm my nerves. this included going to borders and getting a mocha w/ an extra shot of espresso (caffeine is my comfort food, if you can call it a food), and then went tanning (i don't go all that often, only about once a week if that). those things kinda helped a bit, but i'm pretty sure things might piss me off if i leave my house (mostly dealing w/ traffic/cars). one thing that really annoys me (and not only when i'm already kinda angry) is when people don't use their blinkers. they're there for a reason people, use them!!

anyways, i'm sure tomorrow will be better, at least i hope it will be. if not then i guess i'll need to find some other things to try and calm my nerves. any suggestions???

well can't think of much else to write, so i'm off to read, watch tv or something. ciao

weather, what the . . .

i hate winter. well maybe not hate, moreso just a dislike for it. actually it might not be so bad if it was more constant than it is. for example it was cold all of last week and then this past weekend it was above freezing, mid-40's to low 50's, which was awesome. however today the high was at the beginning of the day, might have been around midnight i'm not sure. i do know that when i left for school today that i thought hey, i actually could be wearing a short sleeve shirt as it was in the low 50's. now i'm wishing i brought a jacket w/ me to school as the temperature is now below freezing and it's only 3pm and tomorrow's high is only suppose to be in the mid teens.

i don't get it. is this due to global warming or ???? i'd really like to be able to figure out what kind of clothes i should have packed and which ones i shouldn't (ie summer vs. winter clothes). mostly i would just like to have a bit more space in my closet, but then if i did i would probably fill it up w/ more clothes, so maybe it's a good thing i have to keep all season of clothing readily available.

oooo and the whole global warming thing made me think of a show on discovery i saw some of (i was falling in and out of sleep). it was saying how global warming (or freezing) is a function of itself. well kinda. it was saying how white reflects the suns heat, while the dark (ie oceans) retain it, so the more ice there is the more heat is reflected making it get colder, which in turn creates more ice. also said the opposite was true (and i think is what's happening now), that the oceans retain the heat, making it warmer, which melts the ice, which makes the surface area of the earth covered in a darker color greater, thus making the earth warmer. so in a way global warming is natural, in a manner of speaking, but i'm also sure that we as humans have a bit of an influence in it as well.

and to go w/ train of thought writing some more. watched a movie called 'sunshine' (well i'm pretty sure that was the name of it). it was about our sun dying and there were a couple of missions to try to reignite it (the 1st mission had failed). it was an alright movie. missed the beginning of it where it explained why the people were flying towards the sun. i'm not sure if i'd say it's really worth renting, well maybe if its a cheap rental or whatnot as it wasn't like it was a bad movie, you just had to pay attention thru all of it, which i really wasn't doing.

anyways, i'm gonna battle the freezing weather to make it up to the gym. laters


oh and i just checked the weather again and it's now at 17 degrees, when i started typing it said 27

brand names

first i just saw i have a typo from a couple blogs ago. it's where i said something about a kitten on my lab, as it's suppose to be 'lap'. so sorry to all you english majors and such out there, i'm a math person. i try to be grammatically correct most the time (moreso when not in a blog), but sometimes i miss stuff. anyways . . .

i just thought this would be a fun topic to talk about (plus there's kinda a fun story that recently happened, well in my opinion).

now i know there are a variety of brands out there and people that do and don't like to wear them. me personally i am one of the brand name people. however, i usually only buy the clothing when it is on sale as i will not buy a t-shirt for over $15. ok every now and then i will buy something when it's not on sale. additionally whatever i buy i prefer it to not blatantly state which brand i am wearing. i don't mind if it has a little logo, but i don't want the only thing on the shirt to be the brand name which you can read from a block away. lately i do kinda feel like an american eagle model or something, but i blame that its mostly due to the fact that it's the only store in the mall of the style of clothing i like. there is the buckle, but even their sale rack is out of my price range.

in any case, here's the story. it's rather short. so i was in denver last week for a few days and on one of the days i was shopping in the mall. while i was looking in the abercrombie and finch store, the manager (at least i'm pretty sure he said he was a manager, i was only half listening) asked how often i shop there, to which i said i usually do whenever i make it down from rapid. he then asked if i wanted to work there when the semester ended, which surprised me as i thought he was probably just doing a survey or something. anyways, i felt a bit flattered, as rumor is (not sure if it's true or not) that A&F doesn't take walk in applicants for jobs, they have to ask you to work there (if someone knows for sure let me know). so to be asked to work there, to me, means that you look good :-P and that's the end of the story, bit longer than i thought it would be, but oh well.

into the future

so i finally took some initiative on trying to figure what i'm gonna do after i graduate in may. not sure if i should be looking for a job and then where i want to live, or where i want to live and then a job. the where first seemed more logical to me so that's what i was doing.

so far i've come up with Oregon would be a nice place to live, by both word of mouth and from what i've read. it's relatively warm most the time, the cities i've looked at all had heaps of recreational activities. altho there's also heaps of hippies, but i think i could deal with that :-P

i also looked a bit into north carolina and virginia. both of which could be nice, but i haven't heard too much from other people about them.

plus there's the idea of living in AUS after graduating, but i'm not sure exactly how to go about that. i do know tho that if i really want to, i need to start trying as i've heard that the older i get, the harder it will probably be.

maybe i just need to find everything that i liked in AUS somewhere in the US, which means i have heaps of traveling i need to do before teh semester ends, lol. now if only i had the money in order to do so.

anyone have any input of their own???

cousin's wedding

so was in minneapolis this past weekend for my cousin's wedding. it was fun. i was mostly just happy that i was able to go to the reception after it since i didn't really tell him i'd be there until a couple weeks ago. i figured if worse came to worse i'd just be 'that cousin' standing next to the bar, lol. it all ended up working out. i was in the so called 'party room' which was the friends of the bride and groom.

it's interesting what stories you learn at family get-togethers, which i'm surprised of learning some new ones since my family gets together once a year.

another thing i learned is to not try to close down the bar with older cousins. i was paying for it this morning until about i got back to rapid city. great fun tho, just gotta remember i'm a bit smaller than they are, lol.

so now i need to do some laundry so i can start packing to head to denver. lots of traveling within a weeks time, but might as well get all i can before classes start again. more specifically before i have to get a real job after i graduate.

wow this blog kinda jumps from place to place, eh its how my mind works i guess. anyways, laters

the new year has begun

so i'm not big about the whole new years resolution idea. just think that if you want to change something in your life you should do it right then and there, not wait for a new year to begin. (little side note, don't wear a necklace where the charm dangles when there's a 6 month old cat/kitten on your lab).

anyways...altho i don't care for new years resolutions, i kinda made one for me. in a way tho it's 'cause i also feel like i don't have much to lose. it might take me a while to fully convince myself tho that i don't have much to lose. what i plan to do is to follow a quote (which i know i've said i was gonna try and do a couple times before this). the quote is from the tv show Roswell, which oddly enough is one sci-fi show i got my mom into :-P

"I'm a member of that group of...outsiders. I always knew I was different...and for a long...long...time, all I wanted was to be another face in the crowd...but in the end...it wasn't possible. I guess it never was. So from now on, I'll just...concentrate on being who I really am. Some of you might not like that, some of you might even...find that frightening. But that's not my problem anymore. I have to be who I really am...and let fate take care of the rest"

basically tho, my thoughts on actually following thru with this is to stop worrying about what other people will think, which is rather hard for me to do. towards the end of the semester tho i may be able to, 'cause well i have no intention on staying in rapid once i graduate. not that rapid is exactly that horrible of a place, but its definately not where i wanna live. plus how often am i gonna see the people that go to tech? not all that often.

so yeah, in short my new year's resolution is to just simply to be me.

and for something random, who agrees that its kinda awkward to pull up to a 4-way stop at about the same time a cop does, where the cop is going in a perpendicular direction to you (yes i am a math major so i like to use words like perpendicular, i'd use the upside T but i don't know how to do that on here :-P). do you wait for the cop to go, and how long should you wait for the cop to go before you go?

ok my brain isn't function so well anymore, might be time for bed.