so i guess i get to see now where everybody is located that looks at my blog. granted i guess i'm assuming that people (i know of 1, and thats about it) actually look or read what i write :-P
sad thing tho is that having the little thing expires in a couple weeks as i'm a poor college student right now and don't really wanna pay for it (at least not quite yet). maybe once i get an actual career (i say career as i have a job right now) i'll be more inclined to pay for it. altho that's assuming i actually see that people do read what i write.
anyways enough procrastination, back to school work. only 11 more days (or so) 'til graduation!!! once again assuming i get my 3 projects completed and don't fail any of my 3 exams. but yeah, laters all
Monday, April 28, 2008
Friday, April 25, 2008
Choices (part 2)
"All the Adam had, all that Caesar could, you have and can do . . . Build, therefore, your own world" ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
Continuing on the idea of choices; more of my thoughts involving choices are as follows (which more or less follow the above quote):
you can choose to see either the good or the bad in things, this includes people, situations, etc.
you can choose what you want in your life. that is things that are "good" influences or those that are "bad" (good and bad are in quotes because well to quote shakespeare "for there is nothing either good or bad but thinking makes it so").
you can choose to stay in a life that makes you unhappy, or make the necessary changes to make you happy (this one i guess kinda goes with the previous one).
mostly i guess i just believe that your life is what you make it and what you believe it is. that is if you believe that the world is full of opportunity, beauty, benevolent people, etc. then that is the world that you will see and the world of which you will live in. if on the contrary you see the world full of distrust, hate, and filled with people only worrying about themselves, then that also is the world that you will see and live in. i'm not saying that you have to be naive about all the bad/evil things that happen in the world if you see it full of hope, love, beauty, etc. (and vice versa), as then you get walked all over and used.
maybe it's that i've been able to see a lot of the beauty and such in the world. could be that having been able to travel has aided in this. i dunno, i just know that there have been some people in my life that i want to literally shake (or smack :-P) and tell them that all people are not evil. not all people think solely about themselves. that there are people in the world that wont use them to benefit themself.
anyone agree, disagree, or ??? anything thoughts in general???
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listening to "This is Who We Are" by Cartel
Continuing on the idea of choices; more of my thoughts involving choices are as follows (which more or less follow the above quote):
you can choose to see either the good or the bad in things, this includes people, situations, etc.
you can choose what you want in your life. that is things that are "good" influences or those that are "bad" (good and bad are in quotes because well to quote shakespeare "for there is nothing either good or bad but thinking makes it so").
you can choose to stay in a life that makes you unhappy, or make the necessary changes to make you happy (this one i guess kinda goes with the previous one).
mostly i guess i just believe that your life is what you make it and what you believe it is. that is if you believe that the world is full of opportunity, beauty, benevolent people, etc. then that is the world that you will see and the world of which you will live in. if on the contrary you see the world full of distrust, hate, and filled with people only worrying about themselves, then that also is the world that you will see and live in. i'm not saying that you have to be naive about all the bad/evil things that happen in the world if you see it full of hope, love, beauty, etc. (and vice versa), as then you get walked all over and used.
maybe it's that i've been able to see a lot of the beauty and such in the world. could be that having been able to travel has aided in this. i dunno, i just know that there have been some people in my life that i want to literally shake (or smack :-P) and tell them that all people are not evil. not all people think solely about themselves. that there are people in the world that wont use them to benefit themself.
anyone agree, disagree, or ??? anything thoughts in general???
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listening to "This is Who We Are" by Cartel
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Song Reflection
(kinda copying a friends blog, i'm gonna use song lyrics to blog about)
So the following lyrics are from the song "Can't be Saved" by Senses Fail (which is one of my favorite bands, so there might be more lyrics from them in the future :-P):
"Follow your bliss
It reads on my chest
I know I got it tattooed for a reason
Why can't I just hold it true?
'Cause I'm still crashing all the funerals
Of these people that I never knew
I'm stuck in a coma
Stuck in a neverending sleep
Some day I will wake up
And realize I made up everything
I shut the door and turn all the lights out
And listen to all the songs that the night shouts
They go something like this
So
Go fill up a glass with tonic rocks and gin
And drink yourself to happiness
I'm stuck in a coma
Stuck in a neverending sleep
Some day I will wake up
And realize I made up everything
We can all hang ourselves
(from gold chandeliers)
And drink good bye
To all (al the pain and fears)
Loose lips have sunk this ship
(To a shallow grave)
Washed up upon the rocks
(I won't be saved)
(I won't be saved)
I'm stuck in a coma
Stuck in a neverending sleep
Some day I will wake up
And realize I gave up everything
I won't be saved
(So follow your bliss, it reads on my chest)
I won't be saved
(I know I got it tattooed for a reason)
I won't be saved
(I shut to the door and turn all the lights out)
I won't be saved
(I listen to all the songs that the night shouts)"
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at first i really didn't care for this song all that much. at least i don't think i did. i do know that i began to like it more after i saw the music video for it. mostly i like it because of the chorus, which to me kinda represents growing up in general and not being true to yourself (ie 'made up everything'). in the end though you realize that by not being yourself, you are actually giving up more than you know.
k so maybe i like it mostly due to the last sentence and how i tend to like anything that deals with the idea of "if you risk nothing, then you risk everything". i really need to find that quote for sure so i can write it down and have it on hand whenever i want/need it.
also have you ever realized that lyrics tend to have a different feeling attached to them when you read them opposed to hearing them in a song???
So the following lyrics are from the song "Can't be Saved" by Senses Fail (which is one of my favorite bands, so there might be more lyrics from them in the future :-P):
"Follow your bliss
It reads on my chest
I know I got it tattooed for a reason
Why can't I just hold it true?
'Cause I'm still crashing all the funerals
Of these people that I never knew
I'm stuck in a coma
Stuck in a neverending sleep
Some day I will wake up
And realize I made up everything
I shut the door and turn all the lights out
And listen to all the songs that the night shouts
They go something like this
So
Go fill up a glass with tonic rocks and gin
And drink yourself to happiness
I'm stuck in a coma
Stuck in a neverending sleep
Some day I will wake up
And realize I made up everything
We can all hang ourselves
(from gold chandeliers)
And drink good bye
To all (al the pain and fears)
Loose lips have sunk this ship
(To a shallow grave)
Washed up upon the rocks
(I won't be saved)
(I won't be saved)
I'm stuck in a coma
Stuck in a neverending sleep
Some day I will wake up
And realize I gave up everything
I won't be saved
(So follow your bliss, it reads on my chest)
I won't be saved
(I know I got it tattooed for a reason)
I won't be saved
(I shut to the door and turn all the lights out)
I won't be saved
(I listen to all the songs that the night shouts)"
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at first i really didn't care for this song all that much. at least i don't think i did. i do know that i began to like it more after i saw the music video for it. mostly i like it because of the chorus, which to me kinda represents growing up in general and not being true to yourself (ie 'made up everything'). in the end though you realize that by not being yourself, you are actually giving up more than you know.
k so maybe i like it mostly due to the last sentence and how i tend to like anything that deals with the idea of "if you risk nothing, then you risk everything". i really need to find that quote for sure so i can write it down and have it on hand whenever i want/need it.
also have you ever realized that lyrics tend to have a different feeling attached to them when you read them opposed to hearing them in a song???
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Choices
Whenever i think of choices, i begin to think of how the choices we make begin to define who we are. Then my mind thinks of movies like Spiderman, X-men, etc., but i'm not going to follow that tangent.
back to choices defining ourselves. actually, i'm not fully sure where i want to go with that. i just believe that in life you have choices you have to make every day. some of the choices are simple, like what to wear (ok, i struggle with that choice some days too :-P). others get repeated daily, like "do i go to class today?" still others are more complicated and may have drastic outcomes.
the choices that's sticking out most in my mind is how people choose to deal with the stresses and problems in their lives. lots of people make "healthy" choices by somehow manipulating the stress/problem into a form that can be useful. Anger for example is great motivation for running, plus while running you can sort things out in your head, at least that's my experience. even more people however seem to make "unhealthy" choices, turning to alcohol and/or drugs. it then seems that these choices are continually made becoming what is coined a "self-defeating behavior", and then it all seems to feed off of itself. that is for example using drugs because you are stressed and then not being hired for a job because there was a required drug test, and then doing drugs and such because of stress of needing to find a job. (i keep using 'seems' because this isn't for sure, its just my opinion from my observations)
maybe i care too much for people, as it makes me sad seeing people do things to themselves that keep them from achieving anything and everything they want or ever dreamed. each person has so much potential, i just hate seeing such potential go to waste.
granted i grew up in a 'loving' family, located in a good/safe area, don't ever remember money (or lack thereof) ever really being an issue, didn't ever get teased (other than from a sibling, but that doesn't count), and never really had anything that traumatic happen in my life. i did, however, have extremely high standards to live up to. i had to be, for lack of a better word, perfect. it was expected of me to be the best or close to the best in school, or in anything i did. it was expected of me to get straight A's. it was expected of me to be the typical All-American Boy. like i said, i was expected to be perfect.
if you don't feel that stress is enough to make a kid want to make "unhealthy" choices, try having that stress and then adding to it the stress of hiding who are are from everyone around you. That is, knowing you are not like most other guys, but playing the charade you are, knowing that if anyone found out you really liked guys, you would be tormented. (well maybe not actually knowing, but at least knowing the teasing that happens to others) this means never expressing my inner thoughts/feelings to anyone, especially not my parent's, and thus leaving a feeling of isolation from everything around. Maybe that's how most people feel in high school, i dunno.
i do know however, that i chose to play the role of the perfect child: graduating as valedictorian, achieving Eagle Scout, excelling in soccer/volleyball. I had chosen to use the role that was thrust upon me as the means of getting away and thus becoming who i am. I don't feel i am done with becoming who i am or who i can be, but i don't think anyone ever fully does.
However, resonating effects of my choice is that i still hide who i am to all except those who have proven are trustworthy. I have told my parents who i am, but beyond that i still only tell them the most basic of basic of what's going on in my life. actually there are only 2 people i trust completely with my inner thoughts/feelings. One is actually from high school, and the other is from college. I trust several more, but not as much as the 2.
in the end i guess what i'm mostly trying to get across is that a person has the choice to take what is thrown at them and use it in a beneficial way or not, and that there is always a time to make a new choice.
my question, then to the reader, is "What choices do you make?"
back to choices defining ourselves. actually, i'm not fully sure where i want to go with that. i just believe that in life you have choices you have to make every day. some of the choices are simple, like what to wear (ok, i struggle with that choice some days too :-P). others get repeated daily, like "do i go to class today?" still others are more complicated and may have drastic outcomes.
the choices that's sticking out most in my mind is how people choose to deal with the stresses and problems in their lives. lots of people make "healthy" choices by somehow manipulating the stress/problem into a form that can be useful. Anger for example is great motivation for running, plus while running you can sort things out in your head, at least that's my experience. even more people however seem to make "unhealthy" choices, turning to alcohol and/or drugs. it then seems that these choices are continually made becoming what is coined a "self-defeating behavior", and then it all seems to feed off of itself. that is for example using drugs because you are stressed and then not being hired for a job because there was a required drug test, and then doing drugs and such because of stress of needing to find a job. (i keep using 'seems' because this isn't for sure, its just my opinion from my observations)
maybe i care too much for people, as it makes me sad seeing people do things to themselves that keep them from achieving anything and everything they want or ever dreamed. each person has so much potential, i just hate seeing such potential go to waste.
granted i grew up in a 'loving' family, located in a good/safe area, don't ever remember money (or lack thereof) ever really being an issue, didn't ever get teased (other than from a sibling, but that doesn't count), and never really had anything that traumatic happen in my life. i did, however, have extremely high standards to live up to. i had to be, for lack of a better word, perfect. it was expected of me to be the best or close to the best in school, or in anything i did. it was expected of me to get straight A's. it was expected of me to be the typical All-American Boy. like i said, i was expected to be perfect.
if you don't feel that stress is enough to make a kid want to make "unhealthy" choices, try having that stress and then adding to it the stress of hiding who are are from everyone around you. That is, knowing you are not like most other guys, but playing the charade you are, knowing that if anyone found out you really liked guys, you would be tormented. (well maybe not actually knowing, but at least knowing the teasing that happens to others) this means never expressing my inner thoughts/feelings to anyone, especially not my parent's, and thus leaving a feeling of isolation from everything around. Maybe that's how most people feel in high school, i dunno.
i do know however, that i chose to play the role of the perfect child: graduating as valedictorian, achieving Eagle Scout, excelling in soccer/volleyball. I had chosen to use the role that was thrust upon me as the means of getting away and thus becoming who i am. I don't feel i am done with becoming who i am or who i can be, but i don't think anyone ever fully does.
However, resonating effects of my choice is that i still hide who i am to all except those who have proven are trustworthy. I have told my parents who i am, but beyond that i still only tell them the most basic of basic of what's going on in my life. actually there are only 2 people i trust completely with my inner thoughts/feelings. One is actually from high school, and the other is from college. I trust several more, but not as much as the 2.
in the end i guess what i'm mostly trying to get across is that a person has the choice to take what is thrown at them and use it in a beneficial way or not, and that there is always a time to make a new choice.
my question, then to the reader, is "What choices do you make?"
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Patterns
So as an analytical thinker, i usually try to see if i see a pattern in things that i do, or just things that i observe. moreso, i think i try to find patterns in things that i do so i can better understand myself. you'd think understanding your own self would be easy, but i don't think it is.
one pattern i've found (well it might not be an actual pattern, since it's only happened twice), is that when i know i'm going to be moving somewhere in a couple months, i run into someone i start to like a lot. then it just adds stress to me as i neither times i've been sure of if i should try to start something and see how it goes or not. both times i've decided to see where it goes. haven't regretted either of those choices (but like i said in a previous blog i haven't regretted any decisions i've made). one of my co-workers/friends brought up the point that maybe i find someone because sub-consciously i don't want to move. well the first time i had to move, it wasn't sub-conscious of not wanting to leave as i firmly knew i wanted to stay in AUS (still might make it back there, but i'm not worrying too much about that right now). anyways, it could be that i really didn't wanna leave, but i dunno.
other patterns in my life (that i know of) include: waiting until the couple of days before an exam to do the serious studying, stress makes me drink more caffeinated beverages, and ???
actually now i'm trying to decide the difference between a pattern and just plain habit. dictionary.com has one definition of habit as 'an acquired behavior pattern regularly followed until it has become almost involuntary' and pattern as 'a combination of qualities, acts, tendencies, etc., forming a consistent or characteristic arrangement'
so maybe they are one in the same. at least to some degree. or maybe it could be said that a pattern eventually becomes a habit. anyone agree/disagree?
hmmm....i thought i had more to say about this, but i guess not.
one pattern i've found (well it might not be an actual pattern, since it's only happened twice), is that when i know i'm going to be moving somewhere in a couple months, i run into someone i start to like a lot. then it just adds stress to me as i neither times i've been sure of if i should try to start something and see how it goes or not. both times i've decided to see where it goes. haven't regretted either of those choices (but like i said in a previous blog i haven't regretted any decisions i've made). one of my co-workers/friends brought up the point that maybe i find someone because sub-consciously i don't want to move. well the first time i had to move, it wasn't sub-conscious of not wanting to leave as i firmly knew i wanted to stay in AUS (still might make it back there, but i'm not worrying too much about that right now). anyways, it could be that i really didn't wanna leave, but i dunno.
other patterns in my life (that i know of) include: waiting until the couple of days before an exam to do the serious studying, stress makes me drink more caffeinated beverages, and ???
actually now i'm trying to decide the difference between a pattern and just plain habit. dictionary.com has one definition of habit as 'an acquired behavior pattern regularly followed until it has become almost involuntary' and pattern as 'a combination of qualities, acts, tendencies, etc., forming a consistent or characteristic arrangement'
so maybe they are one in the same. at least to some degree. or maybe it could be said that a pattern eventually becomes a habit. anyone agree/disagree?
hmmm....i thought i had more to say about this, but i guess not.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
blah
so i'm hoping the last couple days are not what the rest of the semester is going to be like. that is being at school by 7:30, have class until 3pm, having to be at work at 4, not getting done until 9:30ish, then heading back to school to study/do homework for several hours and then waking up to do it all over again.
guess i can't complain too much though, as this is really the only semester i've had that requires so much work, and i know others who have a full year or more of schedules like what i said. i do believe i really should have some stock in caffeine, as then i'd at least be getting some of my money back :-P
hmmm....what else is there (on a lighter side that is)??? got a funny article about squirrels drowning while crossing a "frozen" river in search of food. bit morbid in a way, but well i guess that's my humor :-P one sad/funny part of the article was that a person accidently killed a whole family of squirrels when he hit the block of ice they were on with his canoe/kayak (or something like that) knocking them all into the water. do feel a bit bad for the guy though, as he was trying to save them, but then 'caused there death.
k well i gotta go get ready for work, and nurse the wound on my neck from my aunts cat trying to reposition itself on my shoulders and failing (so glad he only has back claws). laters
guess i can't complain too much though, as this is really the only semester i've had that requires so much work, and i know others who have a full year or more of schedules like what i said. i do believe i really should have some stock in caffeine, as then i'd at least be getting some of my money back :-P
hmmm....what else is there (on a lighter side that is)??? got a funny article about squirrels drowning while crossing a "frozen" river in search of food. bit morbid in a way, but well i guess that's my humor :-P one sad/funny part of the article was that a person accidently killed a whole family of squirrels when he hit the block of ice they were on with his canoe/kayak (or something like that) knocking them all into the water. do feel a bit bad for the guy though, as he was trying to save them, but then 'caused there death.
k well i gotta go get ready for work, and nurse the wound on my neck from my aunts cat trying to reposition itself on my shoulders and failing (so glad he only has back claws). laters
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
graduation
so like i've mentioned before graduation is quickly approaching. i have started to get a little stressed with everything i need to get done. i think it was actually getting assigned the projects and such instead of just knowing that they were going to get assigned. i'm pretty sure i'll be able to get everything done, i just have to use my time a lot more wisely than i have been using it lately. i do tend to do better when i am busy though, as i know i don't have time to waste.
so a forewarning to any of you that tell me you want to do something: you better not ditch out as my annoyance/anger level is gonna be pretty low.
anyways, i am a bit excited for graduation. it's more of i wanna get done with this school and go someplace completely else. not that this school or city are bad by any means. they just don't have what i need personally. i'm not sure what exactly i'm gonna do once i graduate, but i'm trying to mostly just worry about the things that are slightly more important (ie all the projects i have to get done in order to graduate). i have thought a little about it, and currently my resume is in the career planning office (hopefully getting looked over) and then they'll tell me what to change and such, and then i'll be able to send it out. at least that's my plan with that.
one thing i find rather funny, possibly ironic, is that i told my mom that i don't want a party or anything after graduation. and now i may have to give up my bedroom that weekend for people coming for graduation. not that i mind giving up my room when people visit, but i really didn't want people to visit for my graduation. also i guess there's 4 or so sets of aunts and uncles that are coming. plus my mom is asking what kind of cake i want, what kind of food, etc. all to which i say "i don't want a party". oh well i know she just wants to show she's proud of me and whatnot, but still it's getting rather annoying (and like i said my annoyance level is rather low).
well i think i should go grab some lunch or something to eat before my 1 class today and then start working on the several projects i have.
so a forewarning to any of you that tell me you want to do something: you better not ditch out as my annoyance/anger level is gonna be pretty low.
anyways, i am a bit excited for graduation. it's more of i wanna get done with this school and go someplace completely else. not that this school or city are bad by any means. they just don't have what i need personally. i'm not sure what exactly i'm gonna do once i graduate, but i'm trying to mostly just worry about the things that are slightly more important (ie all the projects i have to get done in order to graduate). i have thought a little about it, and currently my resume is in the career planning office (hopefully getting looked over) and then they'll tell me what to change and such, and then i'll be able to send it out. at least that's my plan with that.
one thing i find rather funny, possibly ironic, is that i told my mom that i don't want a party or anything after graduation. and now i may have to give up my bedroom that weekend for people coming for graduation. not that i mind giving up my room when people visit, but i really didn't want people to visit for my graduation. also i guess there's 4 or so sets of aunts and uncles that are coming. plus my mom is asking what kind of cake i want, what kind of food, etc. all to which i say "i don't want a party". oh well i know she just wants to show she's proud of me and whatnot, but still it's getting rather annoying (and like i said my annoyance level is rather low).
well i think i should go grab some lunch or something to eat before my 1 class today and then start working on the several projects i have.
Friday, April 04, 2008
finally the weekend
oddly enough i was actually quite stressed yesterday. not sure when the last time was that i felt that stressed. i'm just glad that by the time i left campus yesterday it had resided a bit. afterall i was on campus from 7:30-4:30 working on school work, so theoretically i got quite a bit done. still have heaps more to do, but i have a temporary schedule in my head of when i need to be working on things.
for now tho, it's the weekend and i'm gonna enjoy tonight. not sure what exactly i'm gonna do. i might head up to sturgis and watching a live band play (i work w/ one of the people in the band) with some co-workers, just head up to my mom's place in the hills to relax and have some me time, both of the previous options as the house is within 10min of sturgis, or i dunno. i just know that i'm gonna take the next 24hrs or so and just not think about school. ok well that's slightly a lie, but i'm not gonna do anything school related.
oooo, something fun did happen yesterday while working on hw. so a while ago i wrote that i got asked to work at an abercrombie store. well i had said that i might be interested, but that i don't graduate 'til may. i gave them my number, and well they called yesterday to see if i was still interested in the MIT position (i'm assuming it means 'management in training'). i said possibly, but not quite sure. they said they'd call back in May. So if by chance i don't have a job (in my field i'm studying), at least i have that option. that is as long as i'd make as much or more than what i make now as a server. anywho, that's my fun news.
and now i'm off to find something to do other than sit at my computer as i'll be doing plenty of typing and such in the next several weeks preparing all my projects (hopefully learning LaTex isn't too hard :-P)
for now tho, it's the weekend and i'm gonna enjoy tonight. not sure what exactly i'm gonna do. i might head up to sturgis and watching a live band play (i work w/ one of the people in the band) with some co-workers, just head up to my mom's place in the hills to relax and have some me time, both of the previous options as the house is within 10min of sturgis, or i dunno. i just know that i'm gonna take the next 24hrs or so and just not think about school. ok well that's slightly a lie, but i'm not gonna do anything school related.
oooo, something fun did happen yesterday while working on hw. so a while ago i wrote that i got asked to work at an abercrombie store. well i had said that i might be interested, but that i don't graduate 'til may. i gave them my number, and well they called yesterday to see if i was still interested in the MIT position (i'm assuming it means 'management in training'). i said possibly, but not quite sure. they said they'd call back in May. So if by chance i don't have a job (in my field i'm studying), at least i have that option. that is as long as i'd make as much or more than what i make now as a server. anywho, that's my fun news.
and now i'm off to find something to do other than sit at my computer as i'll be doing plenty of typing and such in the next several weeks preparing all my projects (hopefully learning LaTex isn't too hard :-P)
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
let the stress begin
so theoretically i think i should be preparing to be pulling out my hair. graduation is in slightly over a month (can't wait!!), but there's still everything with classes going on. so much in fact that i think i have around 5 different projects all due by the end of this month. the weird thing is i'm not fully freaking out about it. part of me really thinks i should be, but the other part is convincing me it's a good thing to be relatively calm. towards the end of the month tho, there may be a whole different story.
maybe i'm not really stressing as i don't feel the projects are really all that big or complicated projects. one really is as it's my senior research project, and well i'm pretty sure if i don't get that done then i probably won't graduate. plus, my project should be done (for the most part) in a couple weeks, as that's when my presentation is (dry run around the 23rd or so with the actual presentation the 25th). i do believe i will be nervous during my presentation considering after my presentation a couple of profs are going to be giving a presentation that continues off of the work that i've done (no pressure there right???). not to mention the presentation is going to be at the regional MAA meeting or whatnot (MAA=Mathematical Association of America for you none engineering/math people).
ok i think i've procrastinated enough for one night (well kinda, i'm sure i'm gonna find other things to get distracted by).
maybe i'm not really stressing as i don't feel the projects are really all that big or complicated projects. one really is as it's my senior research project, and well i'm pretty sure if i don't get that done then i probably won't graduate. plus, my project should be done (for the most part) in a couple weeks, as that's when my presentation is (dry run around the 23rd or so with the actual presentation the 25th). i do believe i will be nervous during my presentation considering after my presentation a couple of profs are going to be giving a presentation that continues off of the work that i've done (no pressure there right???). not to mention the presentation is going to be at the regional MAA meeting or whatnot (MAA=Mathematical Association of America for you none engineering/math people).
ok i think i've procrastinated enough for one night (well kinda, i'm sure i'm gonna find other things to get distracted by).
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
pi day minus .02
so today the MAA is having their usually pi day, which is usually held on march 14th (aka 3/14 or 3.14), but this year it's early. probably due to the fact that if it was held on friday, nobody would really show up since that's when spring break starts. kinda sad this is my last spring break :-( but not really at the same time as i'll be glad once may comes.
anyways, this week has been full of school and work. never fails that teachers always give homework assignments or have exams the week right before spring break. luckily one of my assignments due dates will most likely be pushed back to the day following spring break (all depends if i go buy a pie and bring it in for pi day today).
well class is gonna start soon
anyways, this week has been full of school and work. never fails that teachers always give homework assignments or have exams the week right before spring break. luckily one of my assignments due dates will most likely be pushed back to the day following spring break (all depends if i go buy a pie and bring it in for pi day today).
well class is gonna start soon
Saturday, March 08, 2008
HS sports observations
so this weekend was the SD girls state basketball tournament here in Rapid City. My cousin's team from Sioux Falls made it to the championship (against Pierre), which is in a few hours.
Anyways, I've noticed some big differences between the high school sports here verses the high school sports i was in. First, the furthest i ever had to travel for an away game was maybe 2hrs (and that was only about once a season) and then for state tournaments i believe it was the same. Here the bigger schools travel across the state to just play regular season games. I suppose tho, that if you want to have a fair competition between teams, you can't have a high school that is more than double the size of nearby high school play each other. Granted there are some small schools/towns around here that have some pretty awesome teams, but still.
Another thing that also stood out to me was the parents. They seem to really get into it (and not only for the state tourney). I'm not sure if it's just a girls sport thing or if it's a whole SD thing (i haven't been to any boys sporting events). I just know that the parents of my teammates in high school were never too extravagant, or if they were i just completely blocked it out :-P It's not that it's a bad thing, it's just an observation of the difference of where i grew up verses here.
The last thing that kinda goes along with the first is that there are kids that aren't even on the teams that travel to the away games as well. Not as many go to the ones on the other side of the state, but they still drive more then i would have ever been willing to drive to watch my high school play.
At any rate though, the games do make it fun to just people watch, ie to just sit and watch how they react to different things happening out on the court or around them.
well i should find something to eat before heading to the game. i'm hoping that the ticket person only charges me the high school student price again. then again the signs don't say student's k-12, they just say students and i am still a college student :-P
Anyways, I've noticed some big differences between the high school sports here verses the high school sports i was in. First, the furthest i ever had to travel for an away game was maybe 2hrs (and that was only about once a season) and then for state tournaments i believe it was the same. Here the bigger schools travel across the state to just play regular season games. I suppose tho, that if you want to have a fair competition between teams, you can't have a high school that is more than double the size of nearby high school play each other. Granted there are some small schools/towns around here that have some pretty awesome teams, but still.
Another thing that also stood out to me was the parents. They seem to really get into it (and not only for the state tourney). I'm not sure if it's just a girls sport thing or if it's a whole SD thing (i haven't been to any boys sporting events). I just know that the parents of my teammates in high school were never too extravagant, or if they were i just completely blocked it out :-P It's not that it's a bad thing, it's just an observation of the difference of where i grew up verses here.
The last thing that kinda goes along with the first is that there are kids that aren't even on the teams that travel to the away games as well. Not as many go to the ones on the other side of the state, but they still drive more then i would have ever been willing to drive to watch my high school play.
At any rate though, the games do make it fun to just people watch, ie to just sit and watch how they react to different things happening out on the court or around them.
well i should find something to eat before heading to the game. i'm hoping that the ticket person only charges me the high school student price again. then again the signs don't say student's k-12, they just say students and i am still a college student :-P
Sunday, March 02, 2008
work rant
so just to warn everyone this is mostly just a rant and not much more.
so last night was a UFC fight night and was pay perview (somehow that word doesn't look right but i don't wanna check to see if it's correct, instead i like to write a long message saying i think its mispelled :-P) or something like that, thus no where else really gets it so everyone that wants to watch it (but not pay for it themselves) come to watch it where i work. i really really really dislike working on nights that we have the fights. my reason for severe dislike is the same as when there are football games going on and such, which is that people come in sit for hours (like 3-4), but still only tip the same amount as if they had just been there to eat dinner and that was it. since they are at a table for that amount of time (the 3-4hrs), no-one else can, which means that i'm not getting any new tables.
also do not show up, say there's only a certain amount of you and then more of your friends show up after you've already been sat for a set amount and expect us to be able to magically make space for everyone. this comes to mind because there was a table that had been sat as there was only going to be 8, and it ended up being 20. thats a big difference. if it was just a couple more people, then it's easier to accommodate, but more than doubling the amount of people is just plain ridiculous. luckily tho, the table was in an area that we could move tables (luckily people had just been there to eat so there were a few empty tables).
and now i'm gonna rant on tips for a little. now i know that if you have an empty drink most the night and that if i'm not checking on you then yes i deserve to be stiffed with no tip. however, if a couple people at the table say how awesome of a job i did, then it means that i more likely than not provided the same service to you. tips should also be at least 10 percent, as that is what i am getting taxed on. not only am i getting taxed on 10% of my sales, but i also have to give tip money to the bartenders, hostesses, bus boys, etc. Thus if you stiff me or don't leave 10% tip, I am paying for some of your dinner or whatnot. verbal tips are nice (ie you're very good at what you do), but if you then don't leave a good tip, then it's kinda like a slap in the face. words are not gonna pay bills. one last thing on tips. just because someone else at the table is tipping, doesn't mean that you should not, unless that person is taking into account your bill as well (this is for when tickets are split up).
k, i'm done. mostly i think i needed to rant as i was at work from 5pm-1:40am and the ratio/percentage of my tips to my sales was just slightly over 10%. maybe i just need to work as a waiter in a country where they don't tip, so you actually have an hourly wage worth something. for example Australia :-P
k, thats it, i need to go work on some hw and whatnot.
so last night was a UFC fight night and was pay perview (somehow that word doesn't look right but i don't wanna check to see if it's correct, instead i like to write a long message saying i think its mispelled :-P) or something like that, thus no where else really gets it so everyone that wants to watch it (but not pay for it themselves) come to watch it where i work. i really really really dislike working on nights that we have the fights. my reason for severe dislike is the same as when there are football games going on and such, which is that people come in sit for hours (like 3-4), but still only tip the same amount as if they had just been there to eat dinner and that was it. since they are at a table for that amount of time (the 3-4hrs), no-one else can, which means that i'm not getting any new tables.
also do not show up, say there's only a certain amount of you and then more of your friends show up after you've already been sat for a set amount and expect us to be able to magically make space for everyone. this comes to mind because there was a table that had been sat as there was only going to be 8, and it ended up being 20. thats a big difference. if it was just a couple more people, then it's easier to accommodate, but more than doubling the amount of people is just plain ridiculous. luckily tho, the table was in an area that we could move tables (luckily people had just been there to eat so there were a few empty tables).
and now i'm gonna rant on tips for a little. now i know that if you have an empty drink most the night and that if i'm not checking on you then yes i deserve to be stiffed with no tip. however, if a couple people at the table say how awesome of a job i did, then it means that i more likely than not provided the same service to you. tips should also be at least 10 percent, as that is what i am getting taxed on. not only am i getting taxed on 10% of my sales, but i also have to give tip money to the bartenders, hostesses, bus boys, etc. Thus if you stiff me or don't leave 10% tip, I am paying for some of your dinner or whatnot. verbal tips are nice (ie you're very good at what you do), but if you then don't leave a good tip, then it's kinda like a slap in the face. words are not gonna pay bills. one last thing on tips. just because someone else at the table is tipping, doesn't mean that you should not, unless that person is taking into account your bill as well (this is for when tickets are split up).
k, i'm done. mostly i think i needed to rant as i was at work from 5pm-1:40am and the ratio/percentage of my tips to my sales was just slightly over 10%. maybe i just need to work as a waiter in a country where they don't tip, so you actually have an hourly wage worth something. for example Australia :-P
k, thats it, i need to go work on some hw and whatnot.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Regret
so for some odd reason i've been thinking about things i regret, or don't. i've concluded that there's not anything that i really regret at all. this in turn made me arrive at two possibilities regarding regret.
the first being that not having any regrets means that i am living life the way i want and doing what i want. also, i think having no regrets means that i'm confident that i've made all the right choices. every now and then i think what would have happened if i would have chosen a different school, a different major, or who knows what. however if i had chosen something different i wouldn't be the person i am today. i would not have experienced the same things i have experienced.
the other possibility of having no regrets is a bit dark/gloomy. no regrets may mean that i haven't lived life to the fullest so far. that i haven't experienced everything that i could have experience. not taking chances, but living the safe life, taking the easy path, calculating all options to a decision with the outcomes/consequences carefully weighed, and so on.
or maybe having no regrets is a bit of both. afterall, i have studied abroad in australia. i have gone on trips on a bit of spur of the moment (or little planning involved, ie portland). every now and then i do throw myself into something that will challenge me to become better mentally, physically, etc. however, i also think of what may happen due to my actions. i wonder what people will think if i act a certain way, and thus keep myself in check the majority of the time trying not to react to events/situations/etc, but to logically and carefully consider the different ways to respond (which may not be a bad thing in the end). i just know that once in a while i get the urge to just go wild and take the attitude of 'f-off if you don't like what i'm doing, i'm tired of worrying what you think'. in the end however, i critically think of what i could do that will satisfy the urge, but with the minimum amount of repercussion after doing so.
basically, the conclusion about regret is that it is a double edged sword, acting both in a positive and negative manner. the only difference is the mood you (or me :-P) is in when thinking about regrets.
with that, it's time to do some studying.
(in case anyone's wondering, this topic came about because i've been trying to figure out what i'm going to do once i graduate, and having a hard time reaching a conclusion, thus wondering about a few choices i've made. like i said though, if i had made different choices, i wouldn't be who i am, and i'm pretty sure i wouldn't change that for anything)
the first being that not having any regrets means that i am living life the way i want and doing what i want. also, i think having no regrets means that i'm confident that i've made all the right choices. every now and then i think what would have happened if i would have chosen a different school, a different major, or who knows what. however if i had chosen something different i wouldn't be the person i am today. i would not have experienced the same things i have experienced.
the other possibility of having no regrets is a bit dark/gloomy. no regrets may mean that i haven't lived life to the fullest so far. that i haven't experienced everything that i could have experience. not taking chances, but living the safe life, taking the easy path, calculating all options to a decision with the outcomes/consequences carefully weighed, and so on.
or maybe having no regrets is a bit of both. afterall, i have studied abroad in australia. i have gone on trips on a bit of spur of the moment (or little planning involved, ie portland). every now and then i do throw myself into something that will challenge me to become better mentally, physically, etc. however, i also think of what may happen due to my actions. i wonder what people will think if i act a certain way, and thus keep myself in check the majority of the time trying not to react to events/situations/etc, but to logically and carefully consider the different ways to respond (which may not be a bad thing in the end). i just know that once in a while i get the urge to just go wild and take the attitude of 'f-off if you don't like what i'm doing, i'm tired of worrying what you think'. in the end however, i critically think of what i could do that will satisfy the urge, but with the minimum amount of repercussion after doing so.
basically, the conclusion about regret is that it is a double edged sword, acting both in a positive and negative manner. the only difference is the mood you (or me :-P) is in when thinking about regrets.
with that, it's time to do some studying.
(in case anyone's wondering, this topic came about because i've been trying to figure out what i'm going to do once i graduate, and having a hard time reaching a conclusion, thus wondering about a few choices i've made. like i said though, if i had made different choices, i wouldn't be who i am, and i'm pretty sure i wouldn't change that for anything)
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Deal Breakers
so an old teacher, which i suppose i can now call a friend instead of 'old teacher' is looking for input for writing a song about what it is, that makes you stop and think 'yup, definately can't date you' (aka deal breakers).
there are some obvious ones that come to mind. like smoking and/or drugs, but then again i've dated someone that's done both. so in a way it wasn't really a deal breaker, but more of a boundary w/in the relationship. anyways i'm digressing.
my friend is looking for something more unique. the example she gave was hairy backs.
i haven't thought too hard on it, but i think i have figured out one deal breaker i have that i'm pretty sure i wouldn't ignore. atrocious grammar/spelling/etc. is the one deal breaker i don't think i could overlook. i'm not saying i'm all that great at it myself (ie look at what i type), but having multiple misspellings and such just make me cringe. i'm not talking about how some words get changed to make IMing or txting quicker or whatnot.
i'm gonna spend a bit more time pondering on other possible things that make me say to myself 'you're definately not dating material' to try to help my friend out to make an awesome song/lyric. anyone else have any unique deal breakers?
alright i should head to bed, so i can actually be productive tomorrow (mostly finish my advance calculus homework). 'nite
there are some obvious ones that come to mind. like smoking and/or drugs, but then again i've dated someone that's done both. so in a way it wasn't really a deal breaker, but more of a boundary w/in the relationship. anyways i'm digressing.
my friend is looking for something more unique. the example she gave was hairy backs.
i haven't thought too hard on it, but i think i have figured out one deal breaker i have that i'm pretty sure i wouldn't ignore. atrocious grammar/spelling/etc. is the one deal breaker i don't think i could overlook. i'm not saying i'm all that great at it myself (ie look at what i type), but having multiple misspellings and such just make me cringe. i'm not talking about how some words get changed to make IMing or txting quicker or whatnot.
i'm gonna spend a bit more time pondering on other possible things that make me say to myself 'you're definately not dating material' to try to help my friend out to make an awesome song/lyric. anyone else have any unique deal breakers?
alright i should head to bed, so i can actually be productive tomorrow (mostly finish my advance calculus homework). 'nite
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Portland :-)
so this past weekend i traveled to portland by myself. before leaving i was a bit scared as i was going by myself and not knowing anyone there once i got there. those same reason's tho is what also made it rather exciting as well (maybe due to the adrenaline from fear :-P). The weekend was long and not much (overall) sleep was had. i worked friday night, didn't get home 'til about midnight, then had to leave for the airport at 4:30am on saturday (downside of flying standbye is the best flights to take are the ones no-one else wants to take). got into denver around 7:30-ish intending to take a 8:20 flight to portland, which ended up being full, so then i got to sit around DIA until the 1pm flight. good thing i had some homework/reading with me. got into PDX around 3, took the train to the city center as the hostel i was staying at was w/ in walking distance. i did get off the train at a wrong stop (right street, but wrong side of the city :-P). finally made it to where i needed to be, checked in and then went walking around for a bit. ended up back at the hostel around 9, and then went and got some pizza (free might i add :-P) with a couple other people staying at the hostel (the hostel must have had a deal w/ the pizza place as there was free pizza every night as long as someone went the 3 blocks to pick it up). ate the pizza, talked (those i talked with were either moving to portland or thinking about moving there oddly enough) and then went to bed around midnight.
woke up around 7:30ish (the one night i did sleep enough), got some coffee at the cafe across the street, and then went exploring some more. my first destination was the washington park. it was awesome eventho nothing was in bloom, which makes me wonder how great it looks in spring.
ok, i'm getting tired so i think i'm gonna stop the hour by hour dictation of what i did. in short i walked around heaps (enough that my shins were getting sore). PDX was awesome and green (not sure if it was all moss or not :-P). it's a different kind of cold there as i had thought, hey it's gonna be above freezing i just need a long sleeve shirt (this i discovered when i was walking around washington park in the morning). No sales tax was a plus, altho i didn't really buy anything (i didn't have any room in my bags to take anything back with me). the public transportation there was easy and free when in the city center. definately think i need to head back sometime to check out some of the suburbs and such of it (mostly to price the cost of living, etc).
with that i'm off to bed
woke up around 7:30ish (the one night i did sleep enough), got some coffee at the cafe across the street, and then went exploring some more. my first destination was the washington park. it was awesome eventho nothing was in bloom, which makes me wonder how great it looks in spring.
ok, i'm getting tired so i think i'm gonna stop the hour by hour dictation of what i did. in short i walked around heaps (enough that my shins were getting sore). PDX was awesome and green (not sure if it was all moss or not :-P). it's a different kind of cold there as i had thought, hey it's gonna be above freezing i just need a long sleeve shirt (this i discovered when i was walking around washington park in the morning). No sales tax was a plus, altho i didn't really buy anything (i didn't have any room in my bags to take anything back with me). the public transportation there was easy and free when in the city center. definately think i need to head back sometime to check out some of the suburbs and such of it (mostly to price the cost of living, etc).
with that i'm off to bed
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
singles awareness day
well it's not the 14th yet (it might be by the time i finish typing but that depends on how much i ramble) so why not mention the holiday that i more-or-less despise. well maybe i don't despise it, it's more of i just don't understand it. how did singles awareness day (aka valentines day) become such a big holiday. i mean it goes straight from xmas stuff to v-day stuff in the stores. i don't know why people like it so much. i think v-day is really really stupid, and a bunch of crap.
don't get me wrong, it's not that i've never been dating someone on valentines day or whatnot so i'm angry at all the happy couples. it's that i don't see why there's only one day that society (mostly the stores) says you should tell your loved ones how much you love them. you should be telling them you love them throughout the entire year.
don't even get me started on having to buy people gifts to show them you care (ie diamonds, chocolates, etc). plus what do guys get on v-day??? i'm pretty sure most the guys i know really wouldn't want flowers or jewelry, some might want chocolate/candy but who wouldn't want sweets??? the whole having to give someone a gift to show you care basically says everyone who does is materialistic. some gifts could be alright if they have special meaning between the giver and the givee (i'm pretty sure that's not a word, but i'm gonna use it anyways) but the gifts should be given on a special day that isn't celebrated by everyone else. wow for not wanting to get started on gifts i sure went on for a while.
on a different topic. i was thinking of heading to portland this weekend to check it out, but other than getting the time off of work i haven't gotten anything else planned for it. it doesn't take much to get a plane ticket (ya for finally being able to use flight benefits via my mom :-P) but finding a reasonably priced hotel could be hard. then again, i should check to see if there's any hostels or similar there as they're usually good priced. actually i think i might do that until i head to bed. laters
don't get me wrong, it's not that i've never been dating someone on valentines day or whatnot so i'm angry at all the happy couples. it's that i don't see why there's only one day that society (mostly the stores) says you should tell your loved ones how much you love them. you should be telling them you love them throughout the entire year.
don't even get me started on having to buy people gifts to show them you care (ie diamonds, chocolates, etc). plus what do guys get on v-day??? i'm pretty sure most the guys i know really wouldn't want flowers or jewelry, some might want chocolate/candy but who wouldn't want sweets??? the whole having to give someone a gift to show you care basically says everyone who does is materialistic. some gifts could be alright if they have special meaning between the giver and the givee (i'm pretty sure that's not a word, but i'm gonna use it anyways) but the gifts should be given on a special day that isn't celebrated by everyone else. wow for not wanting to get started on gifts i sure went on for a while.
on a different topic. i was thinking of heading to portland this weekend to check it out, but other than getting the time off of work i haven't gotten anything else planned for it. it doesn't take much to get a plane ticket (ya for finally being able to use flight benefits via my mom :-P) but finding a reasonably priced hotel could be hard. then again, i should check to see if there's any hostels or similar there as they're usually good priced. actually i think i might do that until i head to bed. laters
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
aaahhhh indoor soccer
i just realized that the 'aaahhhh' in the title could be taken as either a scared 'aahh' or a relaxing 'aahh'. it's suppose to be the latter.
intramural soccer has been going on for i don't know how long as has men's league indoor soccer, but i only found out about it yesterday. supposedly the people that put the teams together from the schools club team thought i had graduated last semester. granted i should have graduated by now, but it's not like i've failed classes and had to retake them. i'm gonna be graduating with 150 credits, eventho for my degree i only need 128.
anyways, back to soccer. it was fun to play again tonight eventhough we lost. the last time i had kicked a soccer ball i think was probably the last outdoor game from last semester, which i think was roughly late october or early november. i was starting to miss the miscellaneous injuries (which i have a few of now :-P) from playing. there's just something about playing hard and having evidence to prove so. at least right now i'm thinking this, tomorrow on the other hand i may be saying something completely else :-P
one thing that's always funny/weird is that whatever team i'm on, we're usually mostly defenders. supposedly defense is what wins games, but when you don't have an offense player that will shoot, it makes it a bit hard to get any goals.
oh well, i do have a shirt that says i was in intramural co-ed soccer champion and it had only taken 4yrs to get it :-P well one of those years i wasn't technically in the states, but still.
anyways, i'm gonna head to bed so i can wake up and finish my math modeling homework in the morning. so far the assignment has taken around 10hrs and it's only about 2/3rds of the way done. plus i haven't even started my advance calculus homework (luckily that's not due 'til monday). 'nite all
intramural soccer has been going on for i don't know how long as has men's league indoor soccer, but i only found out about it yesterday. supposedly the people that put the teams together from the schools club team thought i had graduated last semester. granted i should have graduated by now, but it's not like i've failed classes and had to retake them. i'm gonna be graduating with 150 credits, eventho for my degree i only need 128.
anyways, back to soccer. it was fun to play again tonight eventhough we lost. the last time i had kicked a soccer ball i think was probably the last outdoor game from last semester, which i think was roughly late october or early november. i was starting to miss the miscellaneous injuries (which i have a few of now :-P) from playing. there's just something about playing hard and having evidence to prove so. at least right now i'm thinking this, tomorrow on the other hand i may be saying something completely else :-P
one thing that's always funny/weird is that whatever team i'm on, we're usually mostly defenders. supposedly defense is what wins games, but when you don't have an offense player that will shoot, it makes it a bit hard to get any goals.
oh well, i do have a shirt that says i was in intramural co-ed soccer champion and it had only taken 4yrs to get it :-P well one of those years i wasn't technically in the states, but still.
anyways, i'm gonna head to bed so i can wake up and finish my math modeling homework in the morning. so far the assignment has taken around 10hrs and it's only about 2/3rds of the way done. plus i haven't even started my advance calculus homework (luckily that's not due 'til monday). 'nite all
Sunday, February 03, 2008
carnivorous cats
(if you're wondering about carnivorous cats, skip this paragraph and go to the next one) this weekends been alright. glad i got off of work before anybody came in that was gonna be there for the entire football game, as we are to stay until our last table leaves (at least most the time). that's all i really have to say about the game, as after i got off work, i had gone home changed and then went to the mall. didn't have any desire to see any of the game at all, not even for the commercials. might have been more inclined to if i knew of anyone having a party. i did however end up at a friends house to watch the last quarter or so. i think the biggest problem i have with the superbowl is that people say that the winning team is the world champ, which in my opinion they're not. they haven't played any teams outside of the NFL. granted they'd most likely beat any other team, but they never played them so i don't think they should be able to say they are the world champs. i have the same feelings about baseball and the world series.
anyways, on a completely different note, cats can be punks (aka annoying). this weekend my aunt was gone so i was responsible for them. last night i shut my door and didn't allow them in as i have too many things i think they'll chew up or whatnot while i'm sleeping. now i have good reason too. i had left one of my necklaces (my favorite one) in the bathroom on one of the shelves. this morning while getting ready for work it wasn't there. eventually i did find it on the floor next to the double recliner. not really too surprised tho as i was kinda expecting that my aunts cats had done something to it. i hadn't suspected tho that they'd eat it!! luckily for me (and them i suppose) the necklace i had made myself out of leather from a craft store so i can just make another one as the charm is still fine. actually i would have been more worried if i didn't find the charm as it's made of metal and is about the size of a 50 cent piece.
i am also curious which one of the 2 it was (or if it was both of them) that ate the leather. my aunt and i have suspicions on which one it is that eat's the little toy mice they have. oh well they're stomachs :-P
this coming up weekend is gonna be fun. at least i'm anticipating it to be. not sure what activities there's gonna be, but it will be fun catching up w/ ashley in person. altho i'll be catching up with her in march as well assuming she doesn't have to go to china when i'm suppose to be heading to WI to visit.
well i should do some tiding up as my aunt gets home tomorrow.
anyways, on a completely different note, cats can be punks (aka annoying). this weekend my aunt was gone so i was responsible for them. last night i shut my door and didn't allow them in as i have too many things i think they'll chew up or whatnot while i'm sleeping. now i have good reason too. i had left one of my necklaces (my favorite one) in the bathroom on one of the shelves. this morning while getting ready for work it wasn't there. eventually i did find it on the floor next to the double recliner. not really too surprised tho as i was kinda expecting that my aunts cats had done something to it. i hadn't suspected tho that they'd eat it!! luckily for me (and them i suppose) the necklace i had made myself out of leather from a craft store so i can just make another one as the charm is still fine. actually i would have been more worried if i didn't find the charm as it's made of metal and is about the size of a 50 cent piece.
i am also curious which one of the 2 it was (or if it was both of them) that ate the leather. my aunt and i have suspicions on which one it is that eat's the little toy mice they have. oh well they're stomachs :-P
this coming up weekend is gonna be fun. at least i'm anticipating it to be. not sure what activities there's gonna be, but it will be fun catching up w/ ashley in person. altho i'll be catching up with her in march as well assuming she doesn't have to go to china when i'm suppose to be heading to WI to visit.
well i should do some tiding up as my aunt gets home tomorrow.
Friday, February 01, 2008
an awesome poem
wow, second post (well kinda) in one day, that's like a record for me. anyways...
so i got the desire to clean my room/reorganize some things. in the process i came across a photo album that my friends in australia had given me. in the cover they had glued a poem by Marianne Williamson (from her book A Return to Love). The title of the poem is 'Our Greatest Fear' which is the poem below (it's copied how it was in the album) :
Now i'm not a religious person by any means, and usually try to avoid anything dealing with God. however, with this poem i make an exception (well kinda). The message within the poem is just spectacular with or without refering to God (really hoping i'm not pissing anyone off, so if i am, i'm sorry, but this is the way i think). The poem gives you the feeling as the reader that you have power that you should not be scared of but to embrace it and use it. In the process of doing so, you help others to discover there own power, who in turn help others, and so on.
Awesome, just plain awesome.
With that i'm gonna get back to reorganizing so it doesn't look like a twister went thru my room.
so i got the desire to clean my room/reorganize some things. in the process i came across a photo album that my friends in australia had given me. in the cover they had glued a poem by Marianne Williamson (from her book A Return to Love). The title of the poem is 'Our Greatest Fear' which is the poem below (it's copied how it was in the album) :
Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate,
but that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brillant,
gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.
It is not just in some; it is in everyone.
And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.
Now i'm not a religious person by any means, and usually try to avoid anything dealing with God. however, with this poem i make an exception (well kinda). The message within the poem is just spectacular with or without refering to God (really hoping i'm not pissing anyone off, so if i am, i'm sorry, but this is the way i think). The poem gives you the feeling as the reader that you have power that you should not be scared of but to embrace it and use it. In the process of doing so, you help others to discover there own power, who in turn help others, and so on.
Awesome, just plain awesome.
With that i'm gonna get back to reorganizing so it doesn't look like a twister went thru my room.
new layout
so instead of doing homework or something onlong that line to fill my time, i decided that this blog could use a little revamping or whatnot. it'll be a slow work in progress, but let me know what you think.
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